GYWO 2023 week 4/52

[sugarspankhorn]

i have very little to report this week and y'know? that's alright! yesterday i had a big mental health assessment that i was very nervous about and i made it through! so now i can move on from that (phwew!), but a lot of my pre-established plans are coming up as well, so that's something i've got to account for. this weekend i'll have to do a lot of prep work for an art market i'll be vending at in a couple weeks, because next weekend is my 3rd anniversary with my partner. i'll need all the work time i can get to restock. so the time is now to consider-- how has "habit" looked for me so far and can i sustain this when there's a few minor bumps in the road?

week 4: rolling with the punches aka "a win is a win"

in spite of my assessment, i still met ONE of my goals from last week! which i count as a big win. i made a good amount of progress on my pwp by hitting it from the final third, which was really fun! there's a bit of a shift in the energy and dynamic from the first 2/3, so it felt a bit like i was starting something fresh-- the same thing from a different angle, i guess you could say. what's more, i had fun working on it and didn't overthink quite so much, so that's great to see. perhaps most epic of all, the bath and body works candle sale came in clutch and i was able to get 5 of my favorite scent (marshmallow fireside i love you baby). that's been really invigorating since, as a reminder, my "cue" for "it's time to write" has been lighting a candle and this is even more incentive lol. i gotta smell the good smell!!

it wasn't a goal of mine, but i also wrote a few fills for threesentenceficathon, which can be found over here. it was really fun and a great way to keep my mind on writing in a low-pressure way. if you haven't written for 3SF yet, it's still going and i highly recommend tossing a fill up! it makes me miss kink memes a lot, also. it's so much fun to fill requests in a low-pressure comment setting!! 

back to goals, though. unfortunately i wasn't able to have a focus session like i planned, nor was i able to continue getting up early. i'd like to keep that going into this next week-- as such, i've only got one goal for next week so as to keep my momentum while also being aware that i have other shit to do:

•  have at least one focus-session this week. make a day of it! have some fun! make writing a priority and work on any project you'd like. i want to treat this as... well, a treat! a break from work-focused art. 

so to answer my previous question: what has habit looked like so far? lighting a candle and writing where i can, finding little pockets of my day in which to channel that energy, has been really helpful. primarily i've been writing at night when i Retire To My Chambers from hanging out with the household, essentially calling the night only a little bit early. that's been where most of my words have been written. my habit is far from consistent but i've been keeping it going, and i think that's the goal at the end of the day. so to answer that second question of is this sustainable? i think so, as long as i continue to be respectful of where my time is needed elsewhere. balancing that with treating writing as a priority is going to be the continuing challenge, but writing has continued to be on my mind in an active way. and so far? i think that's a success. treating myself with grace and a lack of judgement if i can't write every day, if i only write once a week even, is an essential piece to this. as i said in a previous post-- where has shame gotten me, anyway?

but enough about me, tell me about you! what have you been writing this week? do you find it difficult to pick something back up when you've had to put it down due to Life Happening? is it more motivating to write something for someone else rather than for yourself? i'd really like to hear your perspective on this!